I woke up just as I was grasping the reality that I would never see my little girl again. I can't explain the dream really; I just know my daughter was dead. It's a familiar feeling, but one I can live without ever experiencing again, which isn't very likely. It took me a few seconds to realize it was all a dream, after which I immediately got up to give my little girl a hug and prove to myself she was ok. As unpleasant as the dream was, it did help me remember what I hoped to accomplish today: staying mentally focused on the present and enjoying the moments with my family.
I took everyone on a little road trip to Kansas City and we all had a great time. If you have kids between two and twelve, Legoland Discovery Center in KC is awesome. After the lego shenanigans, we went back outside to let the kids and dog run around for a bit. At first it seemed a little too chilly and breezy for our tastes. Kate and I normally would have packed everybody up and headed home within minutes.
We would have missed out on the amazing open grassy areas, the fountains, the waterfalls, and the warm orange sunlight covering it all in the most picturesque way. The kids wouldn't have been able to explore, to run, to challenge daddy to a few races (which I won of course ;), or throw coins in the fountain. When our impatient, future focused brains tried to pull us away, I remembered to focus on the moment and make the best of it. I thought to myself, what's the rush? If this was your last day, what would you do? So we stayed. It was the best decision I made this week. Miley, our Jack Russell, couldn't agree more:
Do Good || Be Strong || Fear Nothing